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I wonder who’d care
If I’d crash and burn
At this very moment.

Because
I no longer do.

Because
I no longer have the fight in me,
Like an engine without oil,
I’m out of juice.

I feel cold.
Numb.
I wonder what’s wrong with me.

I wonder why I’m still here.

I wonder about these tears rolling down my cheeks,
I wonder if they’re a sign.

I wonder if I've given up.
I feel as though I have.

And yet
My body’s still moving
Drawing haggard breaths
That rattle into my aching, empty skull.

I wonder why.
This will be deleted later.

Need-to-vent.
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rockthearts14 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is beautiful <3 if you need someone to listen, you can always send me a note.
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GraciaTheirin Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2013
Don't take it down it's actually really cool to see this because I've been feeling the same way lately
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DewDropDrips Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2013   Photographer
There is such a poignancy to this poem, a hollow beautiful sort of sadness that rings through the words you've chosen. I truly hope you find the reason you're here, we all have one, and that you don't take this down. It's amazing.
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CorporalCornbread Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Please don't delete this later... I'm sure that many people would love to read your poetry (me included!). It's totally relateable for lots of people. And just so you know, a lot of people really would care. Until just recently, I thought that no one would give a shit as well, until I vented - just like you - and found out that people may just be too shy to tell you so at first. So please don't give up just yet c:
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soulesspoet365 Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I found your questions whilst rereading my own works, I may not know you but after a quick glance through your stats I'd say that there are many circles of people who'd be effected.
Everyone you hear from on DA, your Family (even though it may not feel like it), people you know, the people you care about and the people you could meet in the future would all be effected by this one event.

I know it feels like no one cares (I've known this all too well) you wonder why you are still here, what have I got left to achieve, why am I forced to go through this everyday this pain and why does it feel like I've given up.

I'm also searching for the why I've given up answer, so I'll quote 2 people ( [link] ) and ( [link] ) both videos are inspiring enough for me to carry on.

No I'm not good at this life thing, that's why I came to DA looking to vent, looking for answers sometimes we simply just don't have them :/
I dunno if this all ^ will make you feel better but I hope it helps you carry on.
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TheAwesomeHero7714 Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2013  Hobbyist
It's very good to vent. This is completely reasonable and I'm sure there are others that can relate to you. You shouldn't delete this; I'm sure there are people who would love to read this. I hope everything gets better. I surely cannot imagine what you're going through. All I can say, is that everyone here is willing to support you in whatever way you need. :)
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nanci16 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
wow, i totally relate...
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BlueLight01 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know how u feel
And it's always good to have a way to vent your emotions
I know there are a TON of people who care about you so DON'T GIVE UP NO MATTER HOW HARD IT GETS BECAUSE THINGS CAN ONLY GET BETTER!
And have a nice day!!!
:)
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raincloud59 Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2013  Student General Artist
don't delete this there a tons of people who feel this way
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Malice-Confessions Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
I agree. Please don't delete it...
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xLagoonaBluex Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
aww cute
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Krystlyn Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Please don't delete this, you aren't alone in feeling this way
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Arc925 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Surely, I'm not in the same situation as you, but... This describes my feeling perfectly...
Good luck
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CaliTheAnimeLover Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
This how I feel half the time especially when my parents start ranting about my bad grades and telling me off about stupid crap that I don't even care about...
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Yaoifan180 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
this is exactly how i feel when dealing with my mom......
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Kgms Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for venting, you are not alone with this feeling though.
I wish you find your own way towards the things you will enjoy doing, with who you may enjoy doing with.
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vellusz Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank god you put the "Need-to-vent" comment.
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spookbaby Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
Alice, I care!

I would care if you crashed and burned..

Please, Alice, know that people care!

And get better for us, okay? c:
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Entesi Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I hope you feel better soon, I understand what it's like...
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CMVreud Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
Meh, whatever.
Been there, came back, no T-Shirt.
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0-EmoLeopard-0 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2013
Like Sophie said below, you aren't alone! Please feel better soon! You can talk to me if you need to.
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vienna-kangaroo Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I really hope you're able to feel better before long. These feelings do fade, remember - they won't last forever, and while you do have them, there are hundreds of people here to support you. You're never alone and people will always love you and care about you. You're never going to be forgotten. I promise you that now. :heart:
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skugginn Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
I hope things get better for you. :hug:
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Roronoa-D-Riku Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I know how you feel. Sometimes, we feel insignificant to everyone. We just need someone there for us to cheer us up when it happens.
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ohmy-x Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
You shouldn't delete this; as a person who's gone through it, it's very.. interesting to read through later, when the intensity of this emotion has faded. Please know that although I am a stranger, I care about you as a person and would love to listen if you want to talk.
Try not to give up, everything changes :)
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imaterribledrawer Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
*hugs* it will be okay
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MangaGirl500 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconsupertighthugplz: It's okay, I'll be tightly hugging you now! (sorry if you pass out :3)
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Igike Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That was, although sad, a beautiful vent and you do not have to delete it, I think it's well done :)
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Patrikia-Bear Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:hugs: This will pass. And you will reign victorious.
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FlippantMiki Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Please, please, please don't delete this, it's so beautiful. You have real talent. And I should know.
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X-xCharryBlossomx-X Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
This poem is beautifully written and I'm sorry that you feel this way. Its always great to vent out in writing and in any other way of art. Creating something out of how we feel shows the best pieces.
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Happycandyx Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
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Hope you feel better Shiha-senpai!
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OpalCrazy Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Every single one of us would care! You are a wonderful and unique individual, and we would all really miss you if you were gone!
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DoubleButtercream Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
Where's the like button when you need it?
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OpalCrazy Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:)
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YamYamHam Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
We would all care!! I feel like this a lot, but venting in my diary and to others helps me! (As well as exercise haha believe it or not it helps.), and just read the comments below!! WE WOULD ALL CARE, AND WE LOVE YOU.
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LinksHetalianSheikah Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I feel the same way, Shiha, I feel the same way...It'll pass, I promise you. You just have to hold on, think off all the people who would miss you, count your blessings, and remember: I, and everyone else below, WILL listen to you if you have any problems. You can bitch to me all you like about what a crappy day you had, or if you're having worse problems, etc. I'll listen. I can be a source to vent to. I know that sometimes you have to vent to someone, so I offer this to you: I'll be there, and be somebody to lean on. You're not alone :hug:

Just remember: We're not human if we don't feel this way at least once, and for life to give you a chance you have to give life a chance. Don't ever give up, for it WILL get better IF YOU TRY instead of moping around or hurting yourself. We all love you, Shiha, don't forget that :huggle:
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TwinVampire Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I had a similar thought in 6th grade. Don't worry, it will pass^^:iconyuihugplz:
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BunnyFitzgerald Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
I'm so sorry that you feel like this. I hope things turn better soon. We are all here for you, remember that.
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CountrygalxHetalia Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Student Digital Artist
:tighthug: It's okay hun! We're all here for ya!
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VersicolorQuasar Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
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Its alright sweetie. We all feel like that at one point in our existence.
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RainbowBlur Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
;-; I'm sorry, bro... Hope you feel better soon...! :glomp:
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PunkAss-Myth Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
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khfan12 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013
I...really like this poem o.o

I do hope that you feel better hon!
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BokuMexico-Vee Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I hope you feel better:)
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Curious-Owl Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel like this a lot, too. It hurts knowing you're a cold machine, huh?
I have told myself so many times that it'll never get better, but deep, deep down where there is happy feelings, I know that it can get better.

:iconbrohugplz:
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Ostara-Frost Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Student Writer
:iconsnugplz: I hope you feel better soon shiha
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sylphwriter24 Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
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